Single

Being single is kinda cool, I mean like you are free. Free to do all what you want. Get wild, wasted and party. And yet the sad part is that you don't have someone who could make you blush or "kilig" or whatever. Right?

Wondering and Single

I just cant help wondering if what I did will have a good effect on me. Maybe, yes, no. Let's just see where this will take me. Anyway, I will be going home today to our province and I will be staying for good I guess. I will find a job and will take care of my mom and dad for the meantime.  Sick and tired of the city, I guess. It will be a long drive. Don't have anyone else waiting for me back in the city too. LOL.

Pack your bags and get ready for an awesome ride. :)

Tell

You pretend, you cheat between your heart and mind. If you love someone, tell them. Take the risk before its too late, who will you blame then but yourself. Stop fantasizing but take the action that you want. Hold on and stay strong because that would be your weapon. Courage. Secrets will do you no good. Stop pretending. Tell with all your heart.

Random

Sometimes, love gives you too much. You choke, drown.
Sometimes, love gives you less. You let go.

Out there, somewhere, there will be a person who will give you the right amount of love. Someone who will win your heart precisely you want it to be. 

You give up because of long search. Had many relationships, trying to find if he/she is the one. 

Escaping to a relationship because you want to take risk. You try to be happy but cannot because of this emptiness you feel inside; not satisfied. Knowing that that person is willing to give all to you. 

Every night, you wonder, thinking when will be that time. Longing..

Inspiration

Me? an inspiration? No one. A week ago? Yes there is. We just decided that we are better off without each other now. Technically, I did the decision. I took risk, took chances; whatever life may bring to me with my decisions. 

Premiere

Too late to post and share pics for the opening of the new MALL in Davao City; SM Lanang Premiere. And Im sorry i wasn't able to do such because the hell there wasn't any connection yesterday, so bad. Well, anyway, as everyone expected....and every expectations for a new opened MALL, lots of people wants to check it out, and we are one of them, OH YEAH! that's right.. WE! I am with my two good friends, Pam2 and Cath. We are actually the so called threesome, lol. kiddin. We explored the caves of SM Lanang.

Going there was really tough and I mean really tough because of the heavy traffic, as expected right? Supposedly, it would just be a ONE ride thing but because of the effin people going to our destination too, we took RISK and we did the THREE ride challenge, poor us. 

And this is the 360° View of SM Lanang Premiere Inside! :)

And these are the pictures...

The CINEMA

The CINEMA

The Front of SM Lanang

Red Fountain

Purple Fountain

Red Fountain

Going down..

Yummies

Cupcakes..

First in Davao CIty

At the back of SM Lanang, some sort of Concert Area.

At the back of SM Lanang, some sort of Concert Area.

At the back of SM Lanang, some sort of Concert Area.

At the back of SM Lanang.

Park Inn by Radisson 

Inside

Late dinner at Penongs

Way to Jollibee

Tired

DONE

I am on the verge of completing my requirements, done printing and just 3 signatures to pass my requirements... TODAY. 

1st Day: So, first day of the completion process for my IV Training, the usual 3+3+1 thing. And so, I, together with my new found friends, Yedda and Socratis (the actual spelling) decided to meet at the hospitals   canteen at around 10 AM and me running late and haven't prepared much for the completion duty. First off, and we don't know anything about the hospitals blueprint, decided to wander where our guts and feet will lead us and so.. gone to COMMUNICABLE DISEASE ward and crap wandering in the hallway without mask, it was perfect! lol. And then gone to ORTHO ward where we got almost our cases, I had my 2 IV Infusions and IVTT Meds. After such, gone to IMCU for my 3rd IVTT Meds requirement and done. And being such a good friend, I had to accompany Socratis to the OB-GYNE ward for his requirment too. 

2nd Day: Nothing much happened actually, meet up at OB ER for my last IV Insertion requirement. Separated ways for the moment then. 

3rd Day: Oh yes, almost done but I have to wait up until morning to get my Blood Transfusion requirement. And thank God it's just Fresh Frozen Plasma and just took me like 15 minutes or more to infuse the plasma. And getting the vital signs was just easy since the patient and the watcher were kinda actually kind.

I was home at around 8:00 and it was almost a 24 hour duty from the second day. :)

 At around 4 AM, waiting for the blood transfusion, technically plasma transfusion.

Metacarpal veins and blah blah, its a shit but need to learn or fail. 











And again..

CHASE

It's like I'm chasing pavements. :(

PAST STUPIDITY, LOL

i just want to die right now! huhuhu. CRAP! wahhh! felt like my heart was crushed by a million elephants, yung tipong, durog na durog tlga? yung wala kna tlgang makikita dahil sa sobrang durog na! you just humiliated yourself sergell for expecting too much sa kanya, you'd known the consequences yet you sailed pa rin. taking risk was the biggest mistake. kahit nlang konting respeto and care yung ipakita nya sakin, kahit as a movie and series buddy nlang cguro. my whole body is melting with rage and fire na di ko maintindihan, magagalit ba ako? or i'll just cry? i don't know! HB na ata ako coz i can feel some pain on my nape, haha. i'm just fooling myself! FOOL FOOL FOOL! gumising k nman sergell o, you're better than this! please, maawa k sa sarili mo. sinabi n nga nyang "im not cut for relationships" eh!! bat ayaw mo pa rin mkaintindi? ikaw ata yung manhid serg, sira ulo, martyr, waahh! kung me sobra pa dun, that's what i'll call myself! crap crap crap! anu ba kasi meron sau e? love really is mysterious and humans are fool to fall to. i dont know what to do right now. i need an antidote to forget about you, forget what youve done to me and the feeling i feel for you. youve caused to much pain sakin and i don't blame you for that, it was me who let myself fall for you. i don't want to feel bad for myself, instead, i'll just learn from this and that this whole experience still proves that im capable of loving a person seriously. i know this sounds crazy but i must tell you that you really caught me and i was madly in love with you. thank you for the time anyway, see you when i see you though, mlapit lng nman din tau. well, if you can read this, please dont get mad, paxenxa na din because ive expected too much on you and to myself. tao lng naman tau diba? nagmamahal kahit ayaw nung isa. please forgive me too when i was trying to pull some spare time on you. somehow, with that little time, i felt so fine beside you. haha. 

SIX PART INVENTION - FALLING IN LOVE; this song is dedicated sau, una plang, first texts, call.. swear.



Thank you so much! sad but true, the reality really sucks but you have to fucking believe and accept it. naahh, just have to let go of you i guess, keeping this feeling would continually kill me. everyday will be an enough torture to kill me repeatedly! haha. don't have to delete your number naman, mgiging bitter ako nyan (is this message not enough to show how bitter you are sergell?) [d pa ako bitter nyan ah, promise]

P.S. this does not even sound like a suicide note. im just expressing how i feel right now. (whoaah, feeling a little much better now though; pero d p tlga, haha.) i could write a... uhm, what do you call this kind of writing? reflection paper? reaction paper? haha. duh, whatever serg. friends, if you can read this..... uhhmm.. you might say..

1. nah, naboang na si serg! haha. merisi! [sama mo nman friend] haha. 
2. hala, nainlove tlga ang gago o! [yeah, totally]
3. magpakamatay k nlang serg! haha.

you once said to me, stop being a kid serg. i was hurt but this you should put in your mind, i was a kid so honest of what i feel for you, i was a kid madly and crazily inlove with you, i was a kid that knows how to appreciate people who loves them.

serg, bitter k tlga, haha. [no, i'm not] hindi nga nging tau e. wahaha. tears flowing again.. :'(

again, thank you. and i'll still honestly love you! [goodluck serg!]

ciao!

November 7, 2011 
Monday
4:10 pm

Delete

How I wish I have the power, the chance, the ability, capacity to DELETE the past. Had so much regrets and stupid experiences. But how? somehow I can't, DAMN. :(

Different

How I wish my life was different. :(

Blank

Thoughts, thoughts, thoughts and thoughts. 
All I feel is emptiness, feels so unworthy. And I don't know what to do. 

Stuttering

Kinda don't know where to go right now. 
Stucked. Need to get out.
:(

Attached: Don't Let Me Go

Fucking love the song, I mean like suddenly, after watching it sung by one of the auditionee (is there such word as that?) Kinda attached like when you are loving someone saying that "pls dont let me go coz I will die, your my life..." kinda that I guess.

"When you love someone, show it everyday. Its just not words that counts, its the actions"

Here's the song by the way.. :)